Inchstones

An inchstone is one of those tiny steps that your "special needs" child takes on the way to a major milestone. I really can't compare Noodles to other children's milestone markers because he is still behind by about three - four months. But the anticipation is so painstakingly slow that I like to think of his progress as inchstones in lieu of milestones.

Lewis had two inchstones yesterday and today.

We had pretty much stopped oral feeding sessions altogether last week, because I was so down and blah about the lack of progress. But I got back up on the horse this week and Monday proved fruitless, or rather sweet potato-less. LJ just turned his head away or would immediately start gagging once it got near his mouth. However yesterday, Nate was especially interested in helping his baby brother try out some oral feeding skills. So we first tried playing with these fancy organic banana puffs (they're supposed to melt in your mouth) to get Noodles interested. Then Nate would stick one onto his lips, making sure it didn't go in his mouth since he can't handle swallowing. It really stuck, and the fact that Lewis cooperated was huge! Then we proceeded to try some smooshed avocado and we had mild success. He looked at it...stuck his finger in it...and then accidentally put his finger in his mouth!! All that and he didn't gag. We started him on Peptamen Jr Rx formula as well. So hopefully the new stuff will be gentler on his stomach (it's a peptide-based elemental formula specifically for kids with g-tubes and allergies).

Today, Josh and I took Noodles to meet Dr. Neurologist to get the results from the latest MRI. Weirdly, I didn't feel angry or upset at all- the last neurologist was pretty negative. I was mostly just really curious to hear what the doc had to say. He tipped the scales at almost 20 pounds! And his head circumference is increasing on trend for him..albeit small (43.5 cm is evidently the 2% on the charts). Most importantly there aren't any new abnormal signals. His white matter is growing normally! The injury to his brain is still in the basil ganglia, but they have pin-pointed it specifically to deep in the thalamus (that's where the spinal tracks come together). In the end, he didn't want to speculate on what the long-term prognosis would be (he'd prefer to evaluate him around 18 months, if not 24 months). The one conclusion he did find is that Lewis will probably always have motor control/tone issues. Whether this will impact his ability to walk, talk or use his hands remains to be seen. Only time will tell. I guess that's the most overwhelming feeling I had was that things just are the way they are and they will be what they will be. Noodles has a lot more development between 12 - 24 months so we need to maximize his therapies and be as aggressive as possible. The MRI is not gonna change our current course of action. But we are so thankful that it doesn't look like LJ suffered any cognitive deficits.